Trevor’s Allstarsanother week of hoping and praying Trevor stays healthy so he can go in for his heart cath for the stint. Although I really don’t want him to go in for this, I know he needs it and building up twice now to be let down due to illness is no fun either. I do not realize how much it takes out of me to mentally, emotional and literally plan for Trevor to undergo another procedure.
As I was jogging today my iPod was playing a random selection of Matthew West songs…not in order on my play list but God’s message to me. It was loud and clear! First was Something To Say, if you know this song maybe this line stands out to you too Your life is the song that you sing, and the whole wide world is listening, well the answer to the question is, you were created, your life is a gift and the lights are shining on you today. I quote these lyrics because until Trevor can speak for himself about his CHDs I am his voice and the world is listening to me. The next song was The Motions. This song is so powerful, it can have a meaning for any situation but for me and my journey If I “go through the motions” my child’s future could be in jeopardy. As a Heart Mom I have to stand up for Trevor and when I do I stand up for all Heart Kids. Third (in a row) and last song that played was Stop The World. Let me tell you how often I am thinking and praying stop all this senseless noise I need to hear from YOU! I need God to hold me and I so want to hear from Him.
Through this entire roller coaster I have always trusted God, leaned on him and needed him to carry me many times. A friend told me that God chose me…ME…to be Trevor’s Mommy and that He knew I could handle it. I had never really accepted that before, I am sure my family and friends have told me something to that effect since day one and I just never soaked it in. God does not make mistakes. He is in control and I know this.
Philippians 4:6 says Do not worry about anything, instead pray about everything. WOW is it really that simple? Yes! When we start to worry we need to immediately stop and pray about it. We cannot worry and pray at the same time ;o)
Well that is all for tonight. God Bless!
Love & Hope,
Sarah
Psalm 36:7
How precious is Thy lovingkindness, O God !
And the children of men take refuge
in the shadow of Thy wings.
I Thess. 5:24
Faithful is He who has called me,
And He will bring this to pass.
Psalm 139:13,14
Thou didst form Trevor in my inward parts;
Thou didst weave him in my womb;
I will give THANKS to Thee! for Trevor is
fearfully and wonderfully made;
WONDERFUL ARE THY WORKS,
And my soul knows it very well!
Psalm 37:4,5
I will delight myself in the Lord;
And HE will give me the desires of my heart.
I will commit my way to Him, and trust Him,
And he will do it !
Psalm 42:11
Why are my thoughts so downcast?
Why do I despair?
I will hope in God, and will praise Him!
The help of my countenance, my God.
Psalm 34:10
Those who seek the Lord will not be in want
of any good thing.
v17.The righteous cry and the Lord hears them –
and delivers them out of all of their troubles.
Barbara, you are so amazing, thank you for this!!!!